• Nick Hartkop

January 13, 2022 (Poem)

Who am I going to be today?

By Nick Hartkop


Two sides of the same coin

One of kindness, one of anger


Who am I going to be today?


The clouds clear inside my brain

That keep the light from shining through

Angers voice is louder than loves whispers

For holes in walls to be patched up

And painted over with a smile

The same smile that turns sour when the thoughts set in


The emptiness in my brain

The words that cause pain

Two sides of the same coin

Happy and sad

Lonely and in love


I push people away who want me to stay


But I feel that something is beginning to change

My heart begins to connect with my thoughts

The good ones not the bad


Do I have thoughts that are good?

Am I a good thought?


I don’t feel like a monster

But my reflection shows a wolf

Sometimes I break glass and I cry


Sometimes I cry because I can’t figure out what to say

Sometimes I spit fire with my tongue when I think I do.


Who am I going to be today?

Two sides of the same coin


What if we can’t find each other after we die?


We will because I can feel your energy