• Nick Hartkop

I've started going through my emails and responding, but it's going to take some time. I am still only on messages from May 10th, and I am aiming to do about 20 responses a day. It takes a couple hours to get through them because I want to give thoughtful responses because I am so grateful for the messages, they mean the world to me. I am hoping to be caught up by the end of the month. Below are the lyrics to Liquid Courage, I hope everyone is enjoying the song. Thank you for streaming it and giving my life purpose.

Liquid Courage Lyrics:


Running through the forest with my backpack full of cocaine, cocaine If we just keep driving, we should reach Jersey by Sunday morning Maybe if we kiss we could break tension like my brother's rib cage Stole the bastard's wallet from my father when he wasn’t looking I’ve taken up poetry so I can express all these feelings I wrote letters that I never sent because I never mean 'em Wrote my poem on my hand in sharpie so I don’t forget it What was I talking about? Oh, right. (FUCK!) I can’t stay awake because my friends are all so fuckin boring I can feel the energy my pen has when I’m writing stories I could see the words come off the canvas and go up your nose Now I’m in your brain and know how to make your lungs feel closed Can I have a sip of that? My cuddle tank is feeling empty Liquid courage for the nerves He’s way worse than she deserves Drunken sex after dessert Keeps her heart, with lovely words Broken wings, a flightless bird Promised me this wouldn’t hurt Can I have a sip of that? My cuddle tank is feeling empty Liquid courage for the nerves He’s way worse than she deserves Drunken sex after dessert Keeps her heart, with lovely words Broken wings, a flightless bird Promised me this wouldn’t hurt Her mom said my brain is broke My thoughts wanna see me choke Crown of Thorns lay on my head I’ll stay home and sleep instead Your dad's back in jail again Apple picking with a friend Mirror, mirror on the wall Who’s most lonely of them all I can’t fall in love again (stay away, stay away) Cupid's arrow in my neck (stay away, stay away) I’m more trouble than I’m worth (stay away, stay away) You’re a danger to yourself (stay away, stay away) Can I have a sip of that? My cuddle tank is feeling empty Liquid courage for the nerves He’s way worse than she deserves Drunken sex after dessert Keeps her heart, with lovely words Broken wings, a flightless bird Promised me this wouldn’t hurt

  • Nick Hartkop

Liquid Courage has been uploaded and should be available in the next few days. I finally caught COVID so I have been in bed all week and have been unable to get any emails yet, I have a few hundred so it's gonna take me a while to get through, but I promise to respond once I'm feeling better. I really like Liquid Courage and I think it's my favorite off the album I have been slowly releasing. I think the high energy and electric guitar riff are really cool and almost give it an Interpol vibe. I'll upload the lyrics once it goes up everywhere because I don't want to spoil it. I've been struggling with my Bipolar and BPD lately but am continuing my therapy and medication and being the best person I need to be and should be. I want to thank everyone for their support and for not giving up on me or McCafferty. It is my purpose in life and to be able to create and share music with people drives me to keep on living. I hope everyone is well and I'll message soon. We also got a bunny two weeks ago who we have been showering with love and kisses and is a new part of our family. Her name is Bunny and she's incredibly sweet and loves to spend time with us. I'll include the art for Liquid Courage and a picture of Bunny below


Nick

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  • Nick Hartkop

Over the last two years, I have been working on a screenplay that I have been submitting to the industry. I submitted it for a review on BLKLST and told myself if it scored a 7 or higher I would publish it. I will attach the review I received at the bottom of this blog for people to check out, as well as a link to the screenplay. The entire script is free to read here on my website. It is also available on Kindle, and you can purchase a paperback for $9.99 if interested.


Website link (Free PDF)

Kindle/Paperback The name of the script is Cancelled, and the logline for the film is: After being cancelled, a failed comedian with Bipolar and BPD comes to terms with the consequences of his abusive past. I wanted to write a story that explored what it means to be someone who has an abusive past but wants to move forward as a good person, and the challenges having Bipolar and BPD present for creating and maintaining healthy relationships. It is ultimately a story exploring what it means to be an abuser who wants to break the cycle they have created for themselves, and the scars their behavior leaves on others. It is a story shaped by my own past, and not something I could have written if I hadn't been the person I was and had the failures I have had. I want to be a good person and someone people can be proud of. I want to have and maintain healthy relationships and treat people well, and I want to take all the regret and shame I have and use it to better myself. I want to know if it is possible for me to redeem myself in my life and the eyes of others or am, or if I am damned forever. I take my therapy and medication seriously and have been doing what it takes to stay healthy. I don't ever want to be that person again, I hate my past and who I was. This is the first screenplay I have ever written and I am very proud of it. I am interested to see if people enjoy it or think the review is similar to how you feel about it, and I would love some reviews on it so please send me your thoughts to nickhartkop@mccaffertyband.com if you have time to read and review it. The next screenplay I am beginning to write is a horror movie and I will publish that too when it is eventually done. To anyone who takes the time to check it out, thank you. I have poured my soul into it and hope it is a movie people will enjoy. I will do a detailed breakdown of the story and what I wanted to create thematically as time passes and people get a chance to read it before spoiling anything. (On a side note, I have about 200 emails in my inbox that I have been trying to get through, and I apologize for the late response, I promise that I will get back to you shortly, my focus has been on finishing this script. I also am going to try to head into the studio within the next month or two for a new song.) Nick


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