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  • Writer's pictureNick Hartkop

With the help of my team, we have created a personal Instagram for myself that is a companion to my blog to help give people easier ways to see updates other than a newsletter.

I have comments and messages turned off because in my past I had an unhealthy obsession with social media and wanting people to like me and I was a toxic person. I have been in treatment for three and a half years for my Bipolar and BPD and have grown significantly as a person and want the opportunity to be normal. I want to be a good person and share things about my life to those who care, and I am really excited to start posting. I'll share blog updates, new podcast episodes, and things from my life. I won't be following anybody. I have about 100 emails left to get through and I am incredibly thankful for you all. You can always send a message to and I will get back to you, even if it takes me a while to respond.

You can follow the Instagram here


  • Writer's pictureNick Hartkop

Skeleton Bones is now available on all streaming platforms:


Apple Music


Thank you to everyone who checks out the song, I really hope you like it! We also recorded Alright (Alright) which will be the next single to come out. Our merch line to support the National Center for Transgender Equality is coming along and once the merchandise enters production by our partner, preorders will go live. I'll share preorders via the blog and email once it becomes available. Thank you again to everyone who listens.



  • Writer's pictureNick Hartkop

I wanted to make a blog updating everyone on my mental health and how my progress has been going treating my Bipolar and BPD. I have been in treatment now for about 3 and a half years and I am currently living the safest and most stable life I ever have. Something I struggle really badly with now currently is the guilt for being abusive and just an all-around bad person before getting help.

One of the symptoms of my BPD is an intense feeling of being forgotten. I struggle with it often and it's a focus for my treatment currently. I feel like people are going to forget about me because I messed up so badly and no matter how hard I try I won't ever get past the worst parts of myself. It's been making me really depressed and I get into these manic panic cycles like people will stop listening to me and I'll be forgotten about. I want to be a good person and have McCafferty be a safe space for people and be someone people are proud of and can see has genuinely changed and grown.

I know I won't ever return to social media because of how toxic I was on it and how badly I embarrassed myself, but somedays I miss having it and interacting with people and it feels like I am hiding. Being able to interact with people via the contact form has been something really positive and I can barely keep up with the messages I receive. I just don't want to feel sad anymore and I know I shouldn't, but I wish people knew I have a good heart and care about people and that my treatment has truly helped me. I am incredibly thankful for McCafferty, and I just love it so much I never want it to end. If you listen to the music, I promise not to let you down and to be someone that deserves to be listened to. I am grateful for my support systems, and I just want to make people happy. I posted about wanting to play a live show this year, but my mental health is too bad, and I am too scared of being seen by the public to play out, but it's something I miss. I'm just going to continue to put out songs and be the best version of myself and help as many people as I can. Everyone listening helps me because it feels like I have a purpose in my life and won't be forgotten about. I'll have some new songs to release here next month that I hope everyone enjoys, and I hope I can be someone people are proud of.


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