November 27, 2021 (Album Update/Rehabilitation)
` We begin recording a week from Monday and I'm really excited. It's been a while since I have had the energy I feel for the songs I have written, and it's going to be a lot of fun tracking them. I'm also proud that my treatment and medication has allowed me to create new lasting relationships with musicians who understand me. I realized that with mental illness, you either figure it out or you don't. You either educate yourself on disturbing/disgusting behavior or you continue it. I was an incredibly immature emotionally disturbed person throughout my life, and the guilt and embarrassment I have over my failures hurts my heart every day. But I'm proud to say that because of my therapy, support systems and education, I have figured out how to lead a healthy life alongside it. It takes time to unlearn problematic behavior with mental illness, but I am continuously doing it. I feel better about the person I am, and the way I treat people.
I wish I had a time machine to go back and educate myself on the pain my behavior caused, but it's unfortunately not how life works. All I can do is be the best I can be, and use my failures to create a safe healthy future for myself and the people I surround myself with. I have been on a journey that I wasn't prepared for, but one I have grown through. I am thankful for my friends, and I am thankful to continue to put out music. McCafferty means the world to me, and I am proud of it. I am grateful to anyone who listens, because as I have expressed before, it gives me purpose. In regards to the album, I have been experimenting with different names for the tracklist, and seeing what I like. I am happy with the name for it and I think the songs are some of my best ever. Putting words on paper is my entire life, and I'm going to sing/scream my heart out on this thing. I took inspiration from my earlier material and am going for a DIY sound in contrast to the cleaner sound I had after Beachboy. The opening track, Ugly Duckling, I think has potential to become a favorite. I am going to update the blog each day with pictures/progression of the record. We start December 6th-17th, so you can check out the gallery if you want to keep up with it.
I want to thank anyone who has written in recently, your messages mean a lot to me, and I am grateful for them. If your message has gotten lost feel free to send one through the website and my team will forward them to me.
I am proud of Snoqualmie Welcomes You, and I think it will be an album fans of the older sound will enjoy. I am thankful for my treatment, medication and support systems, and I am hopeful for the future. I won't give up, and to anyone reading this you shouldn't either. Chase the dreams and wants you have in your chest. You are capable of being what you want to be. That is something I am trying to do also. I will update the blog again when we start recording. Thank you for reading