• Nick Hartkop

February 13, 2022 (Reflection)

It is not possible to erase memories or change the past, but you can stop old behavior patterns, decrease the intensity of blind reactions, learn to embrace change, accept all emotions that come up, build self-awareness, and strengthen good habits. Healing is intentional action plus time

This quote speaks to me in regards to my treatment of BPD/Bipolar. I feel sickness and anguish over my past failures, and I carry embarrassment that is hard to manage, but I have worked incredibly hard at becoming educated and a good person over the last couple of years and am proud of the person I have become/am. I am capable of good, of being normal, of living healthily, of using my lowest points to better myself, to be a good partner, to see the best in others, to love deeply, to be empathetic, to be accountable, to be a friend, to put others before myself, to think deeply, to reflect daily, and to want the best for myself and other people, and to help people who are struggling like I am. I am thankful for my treatment, my therapist, my psychiatrist, my family, and for the opportunities to be the person I want to be. I want to be a good person and I want to show the world that. I want to be the best version of myself.

Nick